Well long story short, its been hard wanting to just draw now, it almost, well, I hate to admit it, but dosen't feel fun anymore. I noticed a lot of my attention has ended up towards hanging out with people, Perfecting my Soul Calibur 4 Gameplay, collecting Yugioh Cards and trading them. Yet even after all that, I still seem to give myself a mental whack on the head for not drawing too. >> To be honest, I often wonder if its because I don't know things, or if its because my interests seem to change pretty frequently. Heck I have phases where I get really in to building Gundam Models, then I enter a SSBB frenzy, then back to Gundams, then some how to drawing, then to collecting Yugioh Cards, then to a SSBB frenzy again, then to a Soul Calibur 4 one. >> Right not its like switching between collecting cards and Soul Calibur cause I seem to be able to do social things with both, Yugioh cards I meet up with old school friends and have a good time playing matches and stuff, Soul Calibur I seem to play with my usual friends I hang out with.

I'm also thinking that it might be the fact that because those two things are more social related things for me that its been easy to stray away from drawing, it wasn't until the start of last school year that I really started to hang out with people and my drawing time was getting lessened fast too, Cause I drew a lot of stuff in my sophomore year and didn't hang out at all with people then.

Soooooo here lies the balance to Social Life and Drawing, seems like social life has grabbed my loyalty, sometimes make me wonder if its because that most of my friends outside of the internet don't practice drawing that its easy to stray from it and such. Honestly sometimes it feels like a hassle to try and upload something when some it is half hearted. Makes me wonder when I hit college if I'll end up dropping drawing forever, or it will some how grow back on me. I can't help wonder sometimes is it because that I don't know what to practice for myself that I don't just do it anymore, or I don't have that patience anymore, cause I do find myself trying to memorize and entire moveset one at a time for characters I use in Soul Calibur (I seem to remember at least 60% of it...) and that would contradict what I just said about patience too. >> Yup can't figure myself out, no one to really talk to about this cause not many people I know in real life have or is going through the same problem as I am. And having a job still sucks by the way...